The Songs
Every song has a story and a meaning for every person who listens.
Neon Sign
If you're angry inside, that's your neon sign
That you know that there's supposed to be more
Morning sun starts to cut through the condensate
As you roll down the windows and caffeinate
Fight the other lemmings so you're not late
Are we here for more than this
If you're angry inside, that's your neon sign
That you know that there's supposed to be more
How you've ended up here ain't exactly clear
You followed the path of those that went before
Numb your mind and your pain so you can sleep
Try to force yourself not to think
You remember when all it took was one drink
Are we here for more than this
If you're angry inside, that's your neon sign
That you know that there's supposed to be more
How you've ended up here ain't exactly clear
You followed the path of those that went before
Give it all so deep it takes all of you
There's so little left that You know you're a fool
Somehow you became someone else’s tool
Are we here for more than this
Garbage Day
The truth I need is inside of me if I'm still enough so I can see
I'm going to let myself marinate in this
Well the garbage showed up today
Even though I woke up in a happy way
This old world keeps spinning and I guess I'll keep grinning
Even though the garbage showed up today
I can see the pain written on my face
Seeing my own sadness from a different place
I used to be a BB in a tin can now I'm growing every way that I can
I can see the pain written on my face
I'm gonna let myself marinate In this
Going to let this moment become a gift
The truth I need is inside of me if I'm still enough so I can see
I'm going to let myself marinate in this
I used to steal my feelings from myself like a thief
Pay any price to not feel any grief
Right now I'm feeling really sad right now I'm feeling mad
I used to steal my feelings from myself like a thief
Well the garbage showed up today
Even though I woke up in a happy way
This old world keeps spinning and I know I'll keep grinning
Even though the garbage showed up today
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Can't Control Me
My mind can be a liar, I'm listening to the part of me that's higher
I've seen days like this before
Where the world seems cruel and my heart feels torn
But every one if those days I've survived
Because of the peace only I can provide
The truth of today is its mine to live
To heal my self and all to forgive
Whatever happens I'll sit with it
And this Life of living I'll never quit
My mind can be a liar,
I'm listening to the part of me that's higher
My thoughts have a lot to say, but my true Self knows the way
It's time to find that stillness in my soul
Where I know that I am whole
And the things I can't control
Can't control me
If I'm not safe within myself
I'm not safe at all its a self made hell
Some say peace is the end of war
But if you feel what you feel that's what the feelings are for
Sure I can go back anytime I want
But I know my truth will always haunt
The truth of what I've felt and seen
Means I can't go back to that way of being
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Good Friday
It’s a good Friday, within myself
Because today I know I’m good
As long as I can remember I was to blame, broken and hopeless, dangerous and lame
The one who made me made me ashamed, but I no longer fear his name
If I’m so bad that he had to die then why am I here, why even try
Now I’m living my truth instead of a lie, and deep in myself I know the reasons why
It’s a good Friday, within myself
Because today I know I’m good
Im choosing love and light and the way that’s right
I don’t need to be saved
The guilt and sadness I’ve always held dear
from the Songs that we’d sing and words we’d hear
The goodness of me is finally clear
and I’m breaking free of self hatred and fear
The story doesn’t even make sense - Your creation rebels so you kill your son to save it
How Can I even believe, if I have to deny myself unlike Eve
I’m so glad Im free of that grief, I’m so glad I no longer believe
Its a good friday
Rich Men
South of
Baltimore
If we don't like the road we're headed down
Its time to with grab hold of the wheel
Before we blame the people in power
We need to ask how they got there
We are all complicit
We got here together let's be fair
We choose to give up our choices
We choose to self medicate
We choose the path of least resistance
Right down to every candidate
Those Rich men south of baltimore
They’re doing what they were put there for
If we don't like the road we're headed down
Its time to with grab hold of the wheel
We live and die by the algorithm
Designed to to maximize control
We see and hear what we already believe
So that we can play our role
We know that we are right
We know that they are wrong
We know that they are the problem
When when knowing them would make us strong
Why fly the flag of our fathers if the freedom that they fought for is gone
Freedom to kneel, speak our minds freedom to fix what's wrong
At The Altar
At the alter of sacrifice, you too can pay the ultimate price
Is sacrifice love personified?
Making abuse seem right
The way that many have died
At the altar
Something about a sacred death
Makes our soul blind and our heart deaf
Ignore ourself but listen to the rest
At the altar
At the alter of sacrifice, you too can pay the ultimate price
Cause your’re not good enough to save yourself
You need the love of the Creator of hell
I know the way I felt
Something I thought I'd never tell
She walked towards me and I wanted to yell
At the altar
You could never give enough to be
The one who sets another free
I found out it was the death of me
At the altar
Don't believe and they'll pray for you
That before it's too late, you'll believe the truth
They think it's love but they have no clue
At the altar
I once was found but now I'm lost
There was no peace but there was cost
My well-being I no longer exhaust
At the altar
Make a Start
You may never arrive
But you can know you're alive
If you follow your heart
And make a start
When the Clutter piles up and the dishes grow hair
It all seems too much It all seems unfair
But I get to choose what gives me the blues in my life
The bills will keep coming and the cars will break down
our bodies will betray us there's no way around
But there’s more to me and you than what we're going through in this life
Sometimes you just gotta start
Before you heal your heart
Do a small thing that's right
Before you see light
You may never arrive
But you can know you're alive
If you follow your heart
And make a start
I'm still working on a time machine
To go back and try again with what I've learned and I've seen
BUT quantum mechanics has me feeling less panic in my life
I believe I can be who I really am
No one else can choose that only I can
So I'm going to break the dam start to free up the Log Jam in my life
Start now start anywhere anywhere is fine
Start something that brings meaning to your time
Make a promise in your heart make up your mind
Keep your word to yourself and to yourself be kind